From the vaults:

first of all and furthermore and to the point at last

what we have learned
so far let's recount
& codify the instances
of recognition
which we recognized
as ultimately our own

instantly one true holding
we have learned to let
go expectations
realize to realize
relate the cat to the cat
not the soul

not the soul no
soul ever wandered out
into the cold
like we do with our skin on
we say we do not either
take your place seriously

& see through that please
teach the cat to the dog
not the soul you are
not your soul you are
a closed fist
opening


i was counting in another way

not long now not long now not long now
until until until
i stand up & i close my eyes
relying on my other eyes

and it could take me
ten thousan lifetimes to take care of all that i am
or can do or it could take all day
or it could have happened already

i haven't opened
my house up for days and i've been saying
i'm doing
just fine

the cat walks up from her silence
and speaks at me
and then we both move on
in a window in a window in a window

in a chair
i sat counting without any real care
for order
sequential or otherwise


salamun in starlight

in this approach belief is secondary & how we strive
to keep the animals full
primary and primary our instinctual desires
to please & to be pleased please please me
we will say to the air & to the trees
& in their manner they will

in this approach we are lost wandering crowded halls
and found wandering the same
once i thought i wanted to be free
now i understand once i thought what i thought
was what mattered now i understand

i was circumferencing that moon-self life starlight
& from such a great distance i would grow
& die one thousand times before reaching even
a lop-sided agreement

but i'm not about to fall off of this sofa yet!

in this approach my good will pulls its wallet out
emptying its dust on the ground
& then tips its hat & then it fades away

i'm beginning to question my perceptions
i'm close to perceiving my questions in this approach we will
choose to make our own mistakes
& we will do what we can do

to stand by them